<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/2320412907182779183?origin\x3dhttp://undefinne-storry.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Photobucket hey hey. I am Zoe and I am 18. Oranges and white purple and computers are my favorite things.


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com
April 25, 2009
冲动

很感激 这城市拥挤的交通
让你我 还能多相处几分钟
人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松 不放松

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

我的心 是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我 想你的时间不够用
为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我 你改变我

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

days

had not been posting for awhile.
the urge of posting was zero.
suffering from flu and cough.
what to write.
okay, lets see.

today,
went CCK stadium for badminton;
with fanny, Nora and Sheryl tan.
we played for an hour or so;
went home after that.
my granny's leg pain,
asked her go consult doctor,
she refused.
Told my uncle her situation;
he drove her there and
the doctor gave a a jab.
when for porridge with my relative
and as per normal.
they played MJ at my house which no one from the house play.
kind of disappointed today.
had been using laptop
ever since afternoon.
cook Maggie for my brother, uncle and aunt.


after much thoughts, i sure stand strong and face the music.
blaming or self-reproaching was useless.
the most important is study .
i should prove people wrong.
i can make it.
yes, i can.
i need to meet with my target
or perhaps score above it.



FRIDAY,
JASMINE came to my house yesterday to take notes and books from me.
We ate at SAKAE SUSHI for lunch.
i was bloated and felt like vomiting.
After that, JAS went popular to buy books .
Head home after that.
My relative came over.
they came without noticing us.
when down stair for dinner.
i just sat there and stare at the food.
I'm simply too full for food.
after dinner, they went home.




April 09, 2009
the story continues

went Lot 1 -popular with teng teng.
just a pen and i hesitate for 3 minutes or so,
i worry that i might waste money.
i owe my mother $350 +/-
i was in debt.
the debt was countless to my parents.
moreover, my old illness was back.
HEADACHE.
it had caused me to take pills for 2 consecutive day.
my work was lay behind,
i need to rush .




thanks folk for all the encouragement.
; jack, i count by year not by months.

i was sick on Monday and Tuesday.
having fever.
kind of shagged.
trying my best to find the real me.
I'm still in the mid of finding.
as what Mrs cheong says.
" let's start afresh"


from next week onwards,
i will attend school everyday,
attend remedial,
do all assessment,
do revision.
this would be my life

i had surrendered to it.
it don't belong to me anymore.
I'm just a walking puppet.
i can't explain much.
everything I'm trying to explain,
will come back to me eventually.
i wasn't trying to push the blame
or perhaps defending myself
is just....
forget it.

i still can't get rid of those
troubles in me.
i need time.
ample of time..
i had set high target for myself.
B3 for chi
B4 for el
B4 for maths
B3 for Combine H.
B4 for science
B4 for POA
this would be my target for SA1

my friends manage to get into poly.
as with past experience,
everyone change when they are in POLY or SO.
hopefully, they are different.

perhaps i think too much.
or my worries was right.
i was two year late.
no time to waste.
even if i happen to die off,
i still want a good and nice result for O's.

April 05, 2009
issue

change of skin.


praying my grandfather yesterday.
going mandai tommorrow today.
reluctant to go.

relatives came yesterday.
lots of problem.
this and this not in good term,
that and that giving black face.
every house had it own problem.
played MaJong, lost.
lost a sum of 15++.





i was wear out. totally-
break down and cried.
my sis saw it.
the stress from mother,
my own target,
peoples' look.
all was bothering me .

i need a rest. perhaps just a rest.
I'm tired. i need someone to encourage me.
storing tons of problem in me.
I'm going to have another breakdown soon. or now.
i may seem fine and happy. ironically , I'm not
the kind of feeling was unexplained.
perhaps the main reason was kept in me.


i bother how people look at my as a retainer.
i bother how people look at my parents.
i bother what they say.
i bother lots of stuff.
maybe I'm suffering from psychology problems.

trying to find the real me back.
i want to travel back time .
make lot of wrong choices.

i regret.
really regret.

i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry